Of all the people who coulda died...
Damn it,
Blaise.
Damn it.
Damn it. Damn it. Now is not the right time for this. This was not part of the
plan. You are not one of the easily replaceable ones. We had not yet downloaded
one tenth of you into the national collective consciousness.
And
tuberculosis? An opera singer who dies of tuberculosis…
What is
that? Some kind of inside joke between you and God on all the rest of us? Some
irony, some levity to relieve our spirits after you’re gone. Well, it isn’t
funny, Blaise.
It isn’t
funny. At least, not, yet. Maybe one day, years down the line, when we’re toasting some new
generation of St Lucian opera singers, old men like Yannick will retell The
Legend of Blaise Pascal, who soldiered through unbelievable barbarism to give
his island’s children the gift of THEIR OWN VOICES. And we’ll laugh at your
inside joke with God and drink another in your name and give thanks that
Philistines like us ever knew a soul like you.
Old Man Yannick...still working on the old part....
Tell the children of the moment when Blaise brought classical technique to the finding of our voices.
But right
now, it isn’t cool yet.
It’s just a
hurt. An empty space. A hole in the ground on the road to the future, the road
that you widened, you helped to dig and to pave – just a big hole in the ground
where all your work, your voice, your laughter used to be.
And now, we
don’t know what to do. Who is going to help take us from being traditional and
pop culture singers to being classically trained fat people with big respect?
Who is going to inject precise time consciousness, work ethic and western-style
professionalism into the hot, wild volcanoes of St Lucian talent? (Not me for
sure. I was relying on you.) Who is going to teach the wild horses?
Stop with the damn conch shell.
I'm not finished and you're going to make me cry.
I’m
exaggerating the fact, I guess. Our little army of artists and social activists
has been surviving and struggling on since 1744, when not long after the first
slave ship landed in St Lucia, the first Neg Marrons ran away from the
plantation, went into the hills and formed a band with two goats and a
shak-shak tree.
In the midst
of wars for liberation wrapped in wars of empire against empire, we always
managed to overcome our greatest losses, writing new songs, choreographing new
dances, making new instruments, creating, borrowing, pirating whatever we
needed to ensure that our people were always more than just fighters,
strugglers and survivors.
We survived
the suicide of Harry Simmons. We had Derek and Dunstan.
Harry Simmons, grand daddy of them all
Roddy, who gave up his greatness for the survival of the folk culture
We survived
the deaths of the greatest teachers of St Lucian traditional dance. We had
Theresa Hall. We survived the passing of Roddy, because…well, because he had
transformed so much of himself into the experience of culture we have today
that we didn’t even have to feel the passing of his flesh, because we still had
him. We’ll always have him.
We always
survive.
But this one
hurts in a special way. Because we had not finished downloading you. Because we
have no replacement for you. You brought something new to the culture that no
one else was qualified to do. And now you’re gone, we don’t know what to do.
Damn it,
Blaise. I hope heaven is really worth it. I hope that what you and your friend
God are planning for us next is really, really good. Because right now, this
just hurts. It’s just one big senseless lose. Damn it, Blaise. Damn it. Damn
it. Damn it.
Oh Danny Boy, the pipes, the pipe are calling...
(To those who somehow
didn’t know: Blaise Pascal was a St Lucian opera singer who invested enormous
time and energy is underprivileged and high risk youth. He was an artist and he
was a soldier about it. He was a free spirit and a free thinker and a liberal
and a conservative and a Christian and sometimes, when it was most necessary,
he was a bit of a heathen.But he was never, ever a Philistine. Blaise Pascal
was a credit to his ancestors and a blessing to his comperes. But God takes the
best ones home before the world ruins them.)
Well, I guess that's it.
You did your part and you think we can handle the rest of it.
I guess there are just a few more tears to shed now.
And then we move on.
But we write you down, brother. We write you down.
We will never let history forget you.
Didn't know him but you made me laugh and cry with this one. 2 goats and a shak shak tree...
ReplyDeleteThanks Jason. Thank you very much.
ReplyDeleteGreat stuff Jason......
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